Dear Diary, I Love Them Both

Karma hasn't met me yet

Song of the day....


" don't break don't break my heart
And I won't break your heart shaped glasses"

This one is easy.

Anyways back to the book I'm slowly loosing interest in...



CHAPTER 3 KARMA HASNT MET ME YET.


Dear Diary,
Last night during the party I walked in on Drew and Becca making out.
I know I don't have a right to say this but, my chest hurts... Or heart. I'm not sure what to do about this weird feeling I get when I'm around both Daniel and Drew. I love how Daniels bad boy side is still innocent and sweet unintentionally...if that's possible. I love how Drew is kinda mysteriously open. He tells me everything... But also doesn't?
God I love both of those morons. They both fight about video game and anime quality. We'll boys will be boys right diary? Well, actually they act like there gay most of the time...
Well anyways we're going to the beach today.
We're as in me,Drew,Daniel,Kazzy,Jenny,Ian,Becca, and some guy named Jason.
I can't wait to finally talk to Drew. I want to sort this out as quick as possible.
Love
Juliet.


After I put away my diary I put on my pink bikini. I knew Daniel would complain about how much skin was showing so I put on some swimming shorts. Not those ugly baggy ones guys where and a few dykes but I put on those small ones that are meant to hide your butt, not the shape of course just the skin. My shorts where rainbow colored. Then I put on a striped tank top with the Abercrombie symbol on it. ( ehhh not my choice, it's Juliet's) I then packed extra clothes and a towel with some other necessities like sunscreen and a green tea.

After i was fully dressed and packed I laid down on my bed thinking about last night. I can't believe i brought condoms thinking I would end up sleeping with Drew. There is definitely something wrong with me. That was not only in smart on my part but f*cked up. I should still put Daniels feelings in consideration. I loved him!

You also have a thing for Drew, I thought.
"Thanks for reminding me brain" I moaned turning on my side to cuddle with my pillow/stuffed animal. His name was Captain Alpaca. He was a cute alpaca in a sailor costume. He was also the first gift from my father... And mom. I remembered going around the house saying " wheresh caftin alpeca!?!" Oh the days when the only thing I had to care about was whether not alpaca was on my bed or in Aaron's crib. It was around the time Aaron was born that my parents had lost interest in me.

Lately my mom has been gaining weight and it's kinda concerning. I don't want Aaron to end up like me. I don't want him to fight for mom and dad's attention for a baby... That of course is the worst case senerio(sp?).

After a while I think I fell asleep because I groggily woke up hearing a song I know wasn't on one of my CDs.

" monster,
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here,
Looking through the window.

That night he caged her bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer, then he stole her!"

The song was really depressing. I got up and looked around. Kazzy and Jenny where sitting in the corner of the room eating Ramon noodles while staring at me.

" what the hell-" I started to say but I was interrupted by Jenny.
" we where just watching you drool all over that smelly alpaca."
"What I don't drool..." I yawned looking down at my animal toy.
As Jenny said, he was covered in saliva... Looks like it's washer time for captain alpaca.
" by the way... Who sings this song?"
" Meg and Dia" they both replied.

After that song another song started to play.
I of course recognized the song from previous car trips with Kazzy and Drew.
It was children of the night by motionless in white.

"We are the children of the night,
And we are rising from the grave,
To haunt you in your sleep,
And drink you from your neck

Cry little sister and save us!!!"

I had heard the song so many times I started singing along with them. It's not that I like this music, it's just catchy.

" okay well let's go guys, we don't wanna arrive during high tide." I said stretching before grabbing my stuff to walk out the door. We all left don the stairs and I locked the house door after yelling " I'm going out mom!"

We went to Kazzys beat up mustang.
Kazzy told me it was a gift from her father. Before he checked himself into a mental institute he had said
" Cassandra, princess" he said patting her head ", I want to give you a early 16 present..."
He then had put the keys in a 15 year old Kazzys hands.
" this car belonged to my father... He gave it to me when he died..... Everything in his will was for me... Not my brothers or mom but me... And when I die-" he started to cry." When I die everything will go to you princess. Not to your step mom April, your b*tch of a mother Valerie, or to your brothers and sisters. Everything... Everything will be yours." He had said hugging his daughter close. " I love you princess and I want you to know that if it wasn't for you I would have died years ago."
That was the last time Kazzy spoke to her father. We don't talk to her about her family. I've noticed it's a very touchy subject with her. Kazzys 17 now of course.

After I got into the back of the car we slowly drove off towered the beach.
Kazzy played some my chemical romance and sleeping with sirens.
We danced and a few times Kazzy would speed up real fast and do donuts in parking lots or on country roads. It was a super fun ride. We then finally arrived at surf side.

" ah man it cost money to go in there Kazzy" me and Jenny whined.
" not for me" she replied smiling.

We past by the entrance and she continued to drive until we pulled into the drive way of the most beautiful beach house ever.
It was four stories tall, actually it was the biggest house in Galveston period!
It was tan and maroon. And not only was the house renting out gulf carts, and it had a water slide for tourist it was a trailer park as well. Whoever lived here made loads of money.

" this is my uncles house.... He's the mayor so.... Yeah" Kazzy mumbled getting out of the car. ( true sh*t right here lol)
We went up the stairs to the second floor ( the first floor has hot tubs, go carts, and a indoor pool) when Kazzy knocked she was greeted by a very beautiful Asian woman who looked to be in her twenties.
" ah you must be bobs niece Kazzy" the way how she said it sounded like Kauwzy.
" yup and I brought some friends with me... More is on the way too" she replied.
The lady let us in and led us upstairs to a bar and living room with a built in water fall.
" you wait here, I make you sandwiches" she said in her Asian accent.
After the lady left using an..... Using an elevator??? Holy sh*t... Anyways after the lady left Kazzy punched the brown couch next to the water fall.
" my uncle likes younger girls" she said turning on the TV playing a episode of the Regular show.
" actually that old eighty year old buzzard usually get a new model girlfriend once a month." Kazzy sneered.

Soon, after a hour after we arrived there was food sitting at the bar and the others had finally arrived. We all sat down eating. The guys all pulled out some Vodka and super expensive wine out of the pantry filled with alcohol.
" does your uncle know where here?" Jenny asked Kazzy.
" yeah, he said to help our selves since he has a appointment with his ex wife and his son... AKA my aunt." She replied sticking a strawberry in her mouth.
I looked around and noticed Daniel hadn't arrived yet and Drew was here.
Okay I should talk to him now.

" hey Drew can I talk to you privately?" I asked
" ummmm"
" it's super important" I replied.
" okay" he sighed turning to Kazzy.
" take the elevator to the top floor" she replied stuffing her face while Ian played with her hair.

We walked to the elevator and I pushed the 4 button. The doors closed and we started going up. It was silent for the twelve seconds we where in there. When the door opened we where in a huge round room with telescoped and desks. It was all windows.
We sat down on a desk and where silent for a couple more seconds.
" ummm Drew"
" yeah huh.."
He began playing with his lip ring and looked to his left.
" look... I don't know why but lately..." I sighed.
" lately I've been getting this weird feeling and I don't understand it but.... It has a lot to do with you-"
" it's disgust isn't it" he whispered.
" no... Lately if been getting real jelause about you hanging with other girls and I get this weird feeling when I'm with you... The same feelings I get with Daniel... And I don't know if it's lust or not" I quickly replied.
God it was so hard to say stuff like this to my best friend.

" what so.... What your saying is you like me.... The same way you like Daniel.?"
" yeah" I nervously replied.

Next thing I knew I was being pinned against the desk and being kissed by Drew.
Our kisses where hot and fast. It felt amazing. I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him closer to me while moaning. I felt him bite my jaw and move down. He found my sweet spot within secound sand bit down. Hard. After he bit me he slowly licked my neck and sucked on my lower lip. I felt his hand slip up my shirt and cup my breast. I grabbed his head and played with his hair as I opened my mouth to let him gain entrance. Soon we where breathing hard and ripping each others clothes off. " Drew" I moaned pulling him closer to me as I felt my swim shorts being pulled off.
I was completely naked under him. I pulled off his shirt and pulled him close scraping my teeth against his chest. He began to trail kisses down my body. Once he was at my waist he kissed me I between my thighs going down on me. It was the most amazing feeling ever. I pulled on his hair moaning his name repeatedly until I felt him stop and whisper " are you ready?" I didn't reply with words. Instead I gently kissed in and looked into his amazingly beautiful gold green eyes. He took it as a yes and pulled off his swim trunks. Soon I felt hi member near my entrance. He stroke my cheek before slowly entering me. I gasped in pain, digging my nails into his back.
" I'm sorry" he mumbled. He pushed in and the pain and pleasure rippled through me. He was still for a couple seconds slowly stroking my hair. " are you feeling better now" he asked kissing my cheek. I pulled him closer and began to move giving him my answer. Soon we where moving together in rhythm only we knew. It felt amazing. I placed my hand on his chest feeling his fast paced heart beat. We where coverd in a thin layer of sweat before I felt a chasm of pleasure ripple through my body. Moaning his name repeatedly I had my first orgasm in the arms of my best friend.
My friend.
My lover.
My other half.
So I believed for the short time we where together.
It felt as if there was a flash of light and we where running through a meadow together.
When I came I had scratched my nails down Drew back. He had also let out a hoarse cry Before collapsing on top of me. We rested in each others arms for a few secound regaling our breath when Drew pulled away and handed me my clothes he stroke my cheek.
" I'll keep you my dirty little secret" he said with a smile.
We got dressed and gave each other another kiss.

I knew that what I was doing was wrong.
I knew that sooner or later karma would kick my ass but...
For now I would enjoy these moments.
Karma hasn't met me just yet.