What could've been

Now...What it is

As Lynns mother i know she has to hate me right now however im not telling this for sympathy or a reaction from anyone. I just want my side to be told....After serving my time. Im home & out of the neighborhood i was once in. I dont speak to anyone on that side of my family who does drugs anymore.I am in college finishing my business degree.Once finished i want to pursue a license in Counseling for Families Reintegration, so they can bond with each other &  for child who have been separated for years from their parents due to drug usage & violence.I want to help make sure that no one else goes thru the things ive been through. No child deserves that.It a Parents responsibility to care for their child and love them unconditionally Not let drugs stop you from doing what needs to be done in order to get them back. I had to learn & grow up the hard way..My family still asks about Lynn everyday & wants to get to know her also.Again I apologize if anyone thinks this story i for sympathy Please Please just know that I have suffered daily from not knowing what my child looks like sounds like acts like or in inspired to be as adult.I want better for her than what I went thru as a child.And I also was mean to my Father when i first met him due to the things i had heard.I formed my opinion around what others said about him instead of my own..Therefor I cant get to know him because our 2nd time meeting i was 17  had a 6 month old baby on my hip standing at a gravesite..HIS... Just wanna make things right before its too late tomorrow is never promised to any of us  Years from now there will be questions she has that only i will be bale to answer
I pray everyday that she allows me that chance to answer them for her. i swear to be hinest no matter how bad I may look due to the answer.. Thank you for letting me share this.


A Mother in tears..A biological Mother is still a mother you were apart of her before you were apart of this world..Because as its been pointed out that you have to Love and care for a child to be a mother..The child doesnt know that the mother is STILL Trying to be..