What could've been

Lynns Mom & What Could've been.

It all began when i was around 16. I met this whom i thought was amazing but little did i know that exterior was just a fony a mask of sorts.Everything was good I got pregnant and ended up having a miscarriage, to only turn around a 4 weeks later be told your still having a baby. Looks like you'll be parents after all! I was soooo excited howeverthe father wanted a boy I prayed and prayed for a girl !! Then on Aug 13,2000 my prayers were answered went to the doctor and was told it was a GIRL!!!! Again everything was good. 3 months later I went into labor and was in labor for 3 days!!! I had my beautiful daughter "Lynn" @ 9:43p that 3rd  day..I was the happiest young lady on the planet! WE went home my little girl and I. See her father and I lived in seperate cities! Well we will move along to when it started getting bad, See my parents were on drugs and I didnt live in the best neighborhood. And "lynns" grandmother offered to babysit while her father and I worked so we wouldnt have to pay for daycare. We accepted the offer. Little known to me the father was abusive to me and beat me severly one day. That next day a social worker showed up @ my door and told me my child was being placed into foster care because of the abuse in the home.I failed a drug test for weed that day because her father and I were smoking  & I called him @ work and told him that they were there to serve me with papers about taking her from us. He said he wasnt worried about it But to do what i had to do. I packed my things and left him THAT DAY! i was not gonna stand for someone to file allegations against me for things i wasnt guilty of. WE went to court and I was told to seek help for drug use & to have NO CONTACT with my childs father. so i went to job corp a few hours away. i used to come home and visit my daughter on the weekends and she always begged me Mommy can I go to school with you now?  It broke my heart!After completing job corps I went straight into a rehab center and got myself clean all while being able to see my precious lynn. When I graduated the rehab thats when everything CHANGED...My daughter was stopped being brought to visits.The families phone number was changed..No contact @ all. It was gonna cost me over 1,500 to go to court and I didnt have the money. Not because I dint love or care for my child.I had no financial support and her father told them we were still seeing each other. Her grandmother said those things about us being mean she wanted a little girl to raise since she gave her daughter up for adoption @ birth because of birth defect the baby had.Her father wanted nothing to do with Lynn because she wasnt a little boy.