This is my life (1)

`I thought you loved each other!`

So many things happened in my family that at age 10,when my brother and dad were fighting,I just sat there,looking at them,not crying or anything,just emotionless,I then ran into my room,and thought to myself `why can't I cry!?I thought they loved each other!!`..that broke me so much,I got so angry at myself..when I was 13,I hated everyone,well..except my boyfriend..he was the only one that cared for me...well,here I am now...having almost everyone,trying to act like everything's fine,putting on a smile and trying to find stuff I'm into,I found out that I liked videogames and really enjoyed them,but I only needed my parents to tell me how lazy I was to bring me down..