thank you to everyone who supports my art and selfies, it really means a lot to someone with no self esteem ?
on December 10, 2019
dying my hair bright red again so I can loook like danger days gerard
on December 08, 2019
on December 06, 2019
so I've mentioned this briefly on here before, but I've never really gone in depth about it ever?
here goes
this is somewhat embarrassing to me. it's like a secret I've been trying to hide from everyone I know. I'm on the autistic spectrum.
that feels weird to type out. I only found this out like,, 2ish years ago when I got a psych eval done, and that was one of many diagnosis, lol. mine is very low on the spectrum, but ever since I got diagnosed, I've been afraid to tell anyone See More because I don't want to be the "autistic girl". I know that sounds bad, bc there are people who have it way worse than I do, but I'm afraid that my opinions and beliefs will be considered irrelevant simply because I'm autistic. I'm very political (if you haven't noticed), but I worry that if my opponent in a political argument knows I'm on the spectrum, they might disregard my points because I'm "autistic" (as a slur).
not to mention that beyond all this, I constantly worry about people noticing me stimming, but thankfully my stims are fairly normal looking to someone who doesn't know. (ex: I crack my knuckles constantly, even when I just did it, I'll do it over and over when I'm feeling anxious as well)
and ig this explains my "obsessions" (special interests)
I get really sucked into things and I just go full force with it until I find something else. You probably have noticed that on here with my current MCR "phase" and my 7 year long love of Dan and Phil
now I'm going say it. I hate being autistic. I hate bringing myself, the autistic kid, into fandoms and communities I like. Not every phannie or killjoy is autistic, so I hate that people might assume that after meeting me. I don't want to hurt people I care about by making outsiders thing that their community is for autistic people.
and I know theres nothing wrong with being autistic, but at the same time, it's hard to really believe that.
if you read this far, thank you for hearing me
here goes
this is somewhat embarrassing to me. it's like a secret I've been trying to hide from everyone I know. I'm on the autistic spectrum.
that feels weird to type out. I only found this out like,, 2ish years ago when I got a psych eval done, and that was one of many diagnosis, lol. mine is very low on the spectrum, but ever since I got diagnosed, I've been afraid to tell anyone See More because I don't want to be the "autistic girl". I know that sounds bad, bc there are people who have it way worse than I do, but I'm afraid that my opinions and beliefs will be considered irrelevant simply because I'm autistic. I'm very political (if you haven't noticed), but I worry that if my opponent in a political argument knows I'm on the spectrum, they might disregard my points because I'm "autistic" (as a slur).
not to mention that beyond all this, I constantly worry about people noticing me stimming, but thankfully my stims are fairly normal looking to someone who doesn't know. (ex: I crack my knuckles constantly, even when I just did it, I'll do it over and over when I'm feeling anxious as well)
and ig this explains my "obsessions" (special interests)
I get really sucked into things and I just go full force with it until I find something else. You probably have noticed that on here with my current MCR "phase" and my 7 year long love of Dan and Phil
now I'm going say it. I hate being autistic. I hate bringing myself, the autistic kid, into fandoms and communities I like. Not every phannie or killjoy is autistic, so I hate that people might assume that after meeting me. I don't want to hurt people I care about by making outsiders thing that their community is for autistic people.
and I know theres nothing wrong with being autistic, but at the same time, it's hard to really believe that.
if you read this far, thank you for hearing me
thank you for this. we support you wholeheartedly.
i'm starting to suspect i have autism too- i havent had a full psych evaluation but ive been diagnosed with a few other things and there are still things i do that dont align with ocd, or adhd, or a neurotypical person's mind. my mom even said she thinks i could have it.
so i've been worried about this too. See More i wouldnt wish this upon anyone, of course, but i'm so glad i'm not alone.
i'm starting to suspect i have autism too- i havent had a full psych evaluation but ive been diagnosed with a few other things and there are still things i do that dont align with ocd, or adhd, or a neurotypical person's mind. my mom even said she thinks i could have it.
so i've been worried about this too. See More i wouldnt wish this upon anyone, of course, but i'm so glad i'm not alone.
on December 04, 2019
on December 04, 2019
on December 04, 2019
on December 04, 2019
fuuck cringe culture.
use emoticons
:0 and : ) and even XD
like what shows you like
like what music you like
like what celebrities you like
express yourself through your appearance! See More
express yourself through art and music!
draw! dance! sing! idc !!
we all die so might as well live life unaffected by other's dumbass opinions !!
fuuck it, write all over yourself in sharpie
fuuck it, listen to the living tombstone
other people can get over it
use emoticons
:0 and : ) and even XD
like what shows you like
like what music you like
like what celebrities you like
express yourself through your appearance! See More
express yourself through art and music!
draw! dance! sing! idc !!
we all die so might as well live life unaffected by other's dumbass opinions !!
fuuck it, write all over yourself in sharpie
fuuck it, listen to the living tombstone
other people can get over it
on December 04, 2019
a little clip that made me feel better, I hope it can help someone else who might need it
https://youtu.be/98Jzhex2MV8
https://youtu.be/98Jzhex2MV8
Gerard Way - Do You Understand?
Gerard Ways quote: "Nothing is worth hurting yourself over. Nothing is worth taking your life over. Do you understand?"
on December 04, 2019
If you are currently a student, in any grade, please take 3 minutes to take this short survey for my math project.
https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/5W7GQ37
https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/5W7GQ37
on December 03, 2019
Frank Saying "Lie to me" Instead of "Trust me"
Song: I'm Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance
on December 03, 2019
on December 03, 2019
the frerard story is so fuucking sad
on December 02, 2019
11/10 video, would watch again
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmwcvkcKhkU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmwcvkcKhkU
frerard moments: a masterpost
here it is, new and improved. watch this one, everyone. not the other ones. IMPORTANT REMINDER: please do not associate this video with anyone's children or ...
on December 02, 2019
Phil noticed me today during his live show and I still am giddy about it 6 hours later
on December 02, 2019
