lemon_drizzle69 - Page 7

I haven't been making a lot of sense lately ?? I've been misspelling a lot of words, I forget stuff I said a few mins ago. I space off a ton more than usual. I developed a habit of tilting my head when thinking about something. I haven't been good at wording stuff and get at a loss for words over a lot of things. I feel more empty & anxious then I normally do. I drink more than usual, especially during the weekends (yesterday I drank vodka before going to church and came back See More home just to go to the kitchen to drink some wine).
I've been feeling really weird lately. It bugs me, bc idk what the feeling is.

Unconscious for 3-10, recovery will take at least 6 months in total.
I'm legit crying rn. I'm so scared, what if he doesn't make it. I can't imagine a life without him.

I'm freaking out rn.
His surgery is in an hour, he keeps telling me not to worry & that he loves me, but..
I just hope he makes it.

Yk what sucks? Knowing that your friend is afraid to sleep bc he doesn't know if he'll wake back up. Knowing that he's probably not going to make it since the surgery is risky. Knowing that he lost hope in surviving & wrote his will.
Knowing that he doesn't believe me when I say he'll be alright.

He. He had to write his will

The hell is up w/ rtrtj. Um you alright my girl

:'(((
Anyway Merry Christmas guys <333

NOOOO RM AND JIN HAVE COVID TOO WTH
FIRST SUGA NOW THEM

Brooooooo they played One Day by Monsta X on the radio I'm so happy ????

Is anyone still alive or.

I'm not a simp ??
*Me when Jae turns into a cringy-soft-uwu-boy*: ????????????????????????????????❤?????❤?????????

I'm a sucker for your mom ??

Y'all suck.
The only active person rn is Ely. Man everyone but them sucks ??

Jae's surgery is in the 29th, so he gets to celebrate Christmas, which is good. But his sister (he didn't say which one) is going to give her liver to him.
I hope it's not Seoyeon, I love her so much. He has like 4 sisters but I'm only friends with her. I wish it wasn't any of his sisters, but I hope it's not her. And if it is, I hope she can survive with one liver.
Sorry, idk if this makes any sense. My English has been failing me lol. All the languages have been failing me, See More except Japanese. And I think my Korean will go down even further, because Esmae said she's going to start speaking English for me. It's sweet, but she has trouble speaking English, so I wanted to try and continue speaking in Korean for her. She's doing good, ngl, but still. I have no reason to speak in any other language except Japanese. I was hoping I'd still be able to speak and remember German, but my German friend doesn't talk to me anymore so.

It's weird to see how much has changed on this site. Idk if it's bc people became more mature or more annoying. I think it's both, there's people who still act the same way they have been, then there's others who grew up. Still, it's hard to remember that anything good happened on here.

Bio update

I actually have something to say.
It's really important...

Bro you'll never know how much I cried just to see that Crystal put Best Support Friend next to my name like. I feel so appreciated :') <3 ily bestie