lemon_drizzle69 - Page 11

YO LMAO JAE GOT NEW GLASSES

And on top of that, I can't stop thinking about whether or not Jae will make it. He said he has a high risk of not making it after his surgery, which is creeping just around the corner (December 23-24). Every day, every hour that passes is another day, another hour of anxiety, another thought of losing him. Another scary dream of Jae passing away. Whatever I do, it doesn't help. I try and try to occupy myself, to keep me from thinking about it, but nothing helps.
It hasn't even See More been a year yet since Jihyun died (Almost. Just 2 more months..) If he dies, then who can I go to when something bothers me? I don't trust a lot of guys because of stuff that happened to me when I was young, so trusting, loving, being this close to Jae. Confuses me. It means I love him, and he's worth trusting. And he really is.
I hope he knows how strong he is. He'll make it, right? Right? He'll survive? He has to. He can't leave me here. He can't leave his kids here. Or his friends. Or his sisters.

What am I gonna do.
I got so used to him waking me up in the morning by him meowing and rubbing his head against my hand.
I wish I could've gave him a hug. I wish I could've gave him one last belly rub.
Why. He was so sweet. Why him. Why that innocent cat.

He's gone
My cat. He's dead
Baby Boy is dead.

HOW DID I GET BIG ASS CRACKS ON MY SCREEN PROTECTER ALL I DID WAS PUT MY PHONE IN A CUP HOLDER AND WHEN I PICK IT UP THERE'S LIKE 4 BIG CRACKS ON IT WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED

Also my sister's friend said she likes me but I like someone else so um.
Don't get me wrong, I love that girl with all my heart. She's an amazing friend and I'm grateful to have met her but. I'm not sure if I'm able to return the feelings.
I don't know, we'll just wait and see ig.

So um.
He said he has a high risk of not making it after the surgery so. I'm kinda scared ngl. I can't lose him.

How would you think that a hamster is a kitten ?? istg you need your glasses.

? Every day, every night getting wasted
But I miss you, what did I do?
Fucck it up, laugh it off and I lost you
If I pull through, is it too soon?
Turn it up, close my eyes, then I'm with you ?

? Mirror on the wall, can you tell me who I am?
I think that I forgot, so remind me once again.
Maybe I was going too fast.
Baby, I'd give it all to go back. ?

JAE REALLY THOUGHT A BAR OF SOAP WAS A CANDY BAR ??? HE NEEDS HIS FUCCKING GLASSES GIVE IT BACK OCEAN

I'm gonna cry.
I did the impossible.
I made Jae laugh. I feel 1000000x times better now ??

I'm starting to wonder if you trust me.? You don't tell me when something is bothering you and it hurts? I said before you can tell me anything but you keep it to yourself. You don't want me to worry but how can you grow if you don't lean on someone for a little while?

NOOOO NOT JAE CALLING FERRETS A RAT HELP ??????

I've been on here for a year and a month.
I didn't know I'd make it this far ?

If you actually listen to the music I post on my page, you would realize how hopelessly romantic, yet angry and depressed and heartbroken of a person I am. And I still have more that are yet to be added.