on January 18, 2024
*drinks my room temp, 4 day old, juice sitting in my room, becausei don't feel like leaving my room today*
on January 17, 2024
on January 17, 2024
Do you ever cry so much that your nose gets super stuffy? But instead of with like snot and stuff, it's just blood???
on January 17, 2024
on January 17, 2024
I always find it so 'funny' that I'll post the most upsetting shit but act so happy to my friends as if it's not here
on January 17, 2024
TW|this is a fvcking vent dont respond with 'ong same'|
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The need, the urge, the want, to relapse right now is so high and I might not be able to coax myself out this time. He promised to always loveme. He said that he would never leave me. And here I am begging him to stay with me until maybe 11 PM and before I can finally be able to doze off to sleep. However because of him I don't know if he's going to stay anyways. I'm always the one begging for another chance, but it's really him. He's hurting me but I need him. I need him in my life and he doesn't see it. I hope he can see how much him leaving can hurt me. And I hope he can see how much I needed him... He says we need to do this separately. However, we've done this so many times before, and we've gotten through each individual time. We've been together for almost a year and he's really gonna throw all of that away just for him to what...probably get with some other girl ge told me not to worry about!? I'm not gonna let that happen..he promised to always loveme. He promised to always care for me. He promised to always stay with me.... He promised never to hurt me and yet here I am i'm sitting in bed thinking about either killing myself or relapsing...
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The need, the urge, the want, to relapse right now is so high and I might not be able to coax myself out this time. He promised to always loveme. He said that he would never leave me. And here I am begging him to stay with me until maybe 11 PM and before I can finally be able to doze off to sleep. However because of him I don't know if he's going to stay anyways. I'm always the one begging for another chance, but it's really him. He's hurting me but I need him. I need him in my life and he doesn't see it. I hope he can see how much him leaving can hurt me. And I hope he can see how much I needed him... He says we need to do this separately. However, we've done this so many times before, and we've gotten through each individual time. We've been together for almost a year and he's really gonna throw all of that away just for him to what...probably get with some other girl ge told me not to worry about!? I'm not gonna let that happen..he promised to always loveme. He promised to always care for me. He promised to always stay with me.... He promised never to hurt me and yet here I am i'm sitting in bed thinking about either killing myself or relapsing...
on January 17, 2024