so i showed my therapist the research stuff and shes letting us schedule a screening soon
GhostyToesty
Cool
on August 23, 2022
BlueTheQuizWhiz97
Makes sense, I'm getting a adhd screening done next time I'm at the doctor
on August 23, 2022
GhostyToesty
@BlueTheQuizWhiz97 autism. I showed my therapist some stuff so
on August 23, 2022
BlueTheQuizWhiz97
Nice! Screening for what?
on August 23, 2022
LilZeke2007
Good to hear Ghosty!
on August 23, 2022
on August 23, 2022
having to get up at 8 tomorrow to talk with your therapist and possibly schedule a screening < sleeping in even though i probably wouldn't be able to
on August 23, 2022
pro tips for parents: do not vent to your kids without their permission
on August 23, 2022
apparently im getting my haircut on wednesday now
on August 23, 2022
on August 22, 2022
I made a roblox story thing but it's more discord like with pfps rather than roblox avis
on August 22, 2022
update on my life bc again this is technically my safe site and i overshare:
i talked to my mom abt my depression shit, we're gonna try a couple things
i also talked to her about a possible diagnosis for autism considering ive related to some symptoms. I've made a list and cited the sources of things i related to. I'm planning on also explaining common things that I relate too with other autistic ppl.
We're doing a family session on tuesday with my therapist to try and talk to See More her about this as far as im aware
and i got to talk to my girlfriend again
me and my sister have been getting along
my dad's in a slightly better mood
ive been socializing with my friends more often
i talked to my mom abt my depression shit, we're gonna try a couple things
i also talked to her about a possible diagnosis for autism considering ive related to some symptoms. I've made a list and cited the sources of things i related to. I'm planning on also explaining common things that I relate too with other autistic ppl.
We're doing a family session on tuesday with my therapist to try and talk to See More her about this as far as im aware
and i got to talk to my girlfriend again
me and my sister have been getting along
my dad's in a slightly better mood
ive been socializing with my friends more often
on August 21, 2022
*me telling my mom the most violent and depressing thing*
*us two seconds later talking like nothing happened*
i love her sm
*us two seconds later talking like nothing happened*
i love her sm
on August 21, 2022
Does anyone know the suicide hotline's new number by any change and how you get someone to talk to
on August 20, 2022
tw really big vent(includes sh, su1cide implications, that shit) bc qfeast is literally the only safe space i have access to rn and only one
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I seriously can't do this anymore. 14 years of being alive, 2 of them ive barely survived through. I made a promise, I made multiple thinking i'd be able to keep them. But i think this would be better. For me, for my family, and friends and girlfriend. but who am i kidding? i have one place i make friends, the internet and most of them went away too. "i should be over my friends' death by now" i lost them to ffucking suicide, a couple months ago. I didn't talk with them often, but i miss them. My closest friends aren't ever online, I can barely be sure if my OWN GIRLFRIEND is lying to me or not. I don't want to be here, but I made promises. I can't be myself, not even here online. I don't want to make it 15 years of being alive, I can't deal with myself. I feel fat and way too skinny at the same time. I'm short for my age but youre only 2in taller. So I round up my age, I limit what I eat to under what I should. My voice is deep, but it's scratchy and "not feminine." I don't shave, but because of society's standards i cant wear clothes I want. I scratch myself until it cuts, but what's my reasoning? And of course, when i feel this way nobody is there to help me so I'm all alone with the thoughts building up. But I can't express because there's always someone there. And I don't want them to know I feel this way. You're a liar, but I deal with it because I love you. And it's bad, for both of us. I will admit, I can be an attention seeker. It's because I refuse to have attention irl. I'll admit, I've made fake accounts places, but it's so that I could divide and block my feelings. I'll admit, that originally I started out with "faking" my depression and anxiety, but of course they're real now. And more than ever. I don't want to be here, I can't be here. I'm suffering, but im too much of a chicken to do anything. I need the help I cannot get. Because I don't know the answers. I've been loosing motivation to even get out of bed or up off the damn couch. I want to be out of this world. I don't care if i'm in a virtual reality but still in this world, I don't want to be in this specific one. I'm sorry. But truth gets out eventually. And if you and your little liar friends didn't do shit, if you ms ferguson didn't abuse my fragile mental state, if you my parents helped me when i was a kid, then i woldn't be like this. Maybe I' be worse? But this is already a living hell. That's not even it or all. I can't. I'm sorry.
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I seriously can't do this anymore. 14 years of being alive, 2 of them ive barely survived through. I made a promise, I made multiple thinking i'd be able to keep them. But i think this would be better. For me, for my family, and friends and girlfriend. but who am i kidding? i have one place i make friends, the internet and most of them went away too. "i should be over my friends' death by now" i lost them to ffucking suicide, a couple months ago. I didn't talk with them often, but i miss them. My closest friends aren't ever online, I can barely be sure if my OWN GIRLFRIEND is lying to me or not. I don't want to be here, but I made promises. I can't be myself, not even here online. I don't want to make it 15 years of being alive, I can't deal with myself. I feel fat and way too skinny at the same time. I'm short for my age but youre only 2in taller. So I round up my age, I limit what I eat to under what I should. My voice is deep, but it's scratchy and "not feminine." I don't shave, but because of society's standards i cant wear clothes I want. I scratch myself until it cuts, but what's my reasoning? And of course, when i feel this way nobody is there to help me so I'm all alone with the thoughts building up. But I can't express because there's always someone there. And I don't want them to know I feel this way. You're a liar, but I deal with it because I love you. And it's bad, for both of us. I will admit, I can be an attention seeker. It's because I refuse to have attention irl. I'll admit, I've made fake accounts places, but it's so that I could divide and block my feelings. I'll admit, that originally I started out with "faking" my depression and anxiety, but of course they're real now. And more than ever. I don't want to be here, I can't be here. I'm suffering, but im too much of a chicken to do anything. I need the help I cannot get. Because I don't know the answers. I've been loosing motivation to even get out of bed or up off the damn couch. I want to be out of this world. I don't care if i'm in a virtual reality but still in this world, I don't want to be in this specific one. I'm sorry. But truth gets out eventually. And if you and your little liar friends didn't do shit, if you ms ferguson didn't abuse my fragile mental state, if you my parents helped me when i was a kid, then i woldn't be like this. Maybe I' be worse? But this is already a living hell. That's not even it or all. I can't. I'm sorry.
on August 19, 2022
on August 19, 2022
whats creepy is when i take quizzes of people i dont even know and they're quizzes like "how well do you know me" and i get very well
on August 19, 2022
do you pronounce 2rd like turd or like seco- wait wha?
on August 18, 2022
my boring ass hobbies in my boring ass life because im a boring ass walking L:
daily identitiy crisis
roleplay
stalking active discord servers
tiktok has literally become a hobby of mine
daily identitiy crisis
roleplay
stalking active discord servers
tiktok has literally become a hobby of mine
on August 17, 2022
pov my ass in a sarcastic and shitty mood explaining how i feel(tw):
awesome or wonderful: i wanna kms
great: im thinking on whether ill survive today or not
good: either good or bad, you decide
eh: eh. im just eh. not good not bad
bad: i feel shitty but not too shitty, i trust you to tell my actual feelings
horrible: just kill me tbh
awesome or wonderful: i wanna kms
great: im thinking on whether ill survive today or not
good: either good or bad, you decide
eh: eh. im just eh. not good not bad
bad: i feel shitty but not too shitty, i trust you to tell my actual feelings
horrible: just kill me tbh
on August 17, 2022
on August 17, 2022