life update even tho nobody cares
-I am still unstable
-I have not been back to a hospital but I have a program coming up
-Still into poetry
-still the definition of a family disappointment(opposite religion, gender, not straight, mentally ill)
-I am still unstable
-I have not been back to a hospital but I have a program coming up
-Still into poetry
-still the definition of a family disappointment(opposite religion, gender, not straight, mentally ill)
on April 21, 2023
criticize this please:
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"The cure for the ill
Is a remedy for the soul.
A band aid for the heart or See More
A wrap for the head.
The cure for the ill is the
Right medicine.
A liquid or solid,
Or my love for you.
Suddenly, in a bliss of
What feels like magic,
My scars are healed.
My head does not ache.
A gentle thumb on my face
Brushes my tears away.
You look at me with eyes
That changed my entire demeanor.
You look at me with eyes that
Mesmerize me in less than
A second.
Your pretty golden eyes.
Your long brown hair glistens
Through my tears as you
Look at me with a concerned
Expression on your face.
It is quiet now that the
Room is not filled with
My intense sobbing that
Was there just a minute ago.
But as you entered the room
And came up to me all
Bad things disappeared.
Only good things have appeared.
The pain in my stomach turns to butterflies.
The ache in my head transfers to my heart.
All memories of the pain i have endured
Are replaced by memories of me
With you.
The sensation of loneliness
That was there once before
Has turned into something
New.
My thoughts once clouded
With a gray storm surrounding,
Have transformed into sunshine
Now that I am with you.
As I lay in the bed
With my white gown on
And you caressing my cheek
I can not even think.
Your warm touch and warm face
Have me in an embrace.
Your loving heart and beautiful eyes
Have me in a loving state.
All my problems have gone away.
All my problems have gone away.
Your warm smile and glistening hair
Have me in a trance.
Your warm golden eyes and
Glistening hair,
Your face of concern and
Mine of despair.
The warm sensation
Of your hand on me
Has me wanting to sleep
With you next to me.
Your sense of security,
And mine of dismay.
Oh, suddenly I wonder
If this is all a dream.
It could be.
You lift my body
From my bed and
Send me to a world
I never knew existed.
Is this Wonderland?
A fantasy come true?
My love is deep for you.
I have missed you.
The cure for the ill
Is the love I have for you.
It is a band aid on my heart
And a wrap for my head.
It is a medicine for my throat
And a remedy for my soul.
My fears go away when I
Look at you.
You make me smile through
My tears.
You make my storm of gray
Turn away.
Instead of being on this white bed
And in my white gown,
I am in your hoodie
And on your couch.
I longed and craved for
This moment.
Your presence cures
All my sickness.
I feel safe,
I feel protected,
I feel secure,
In your arms.
I feel happy,
I feel loved,
In your arms.
There is nowhere I would rather be.
There may be no cure
For the ill that is
Permanent, but I know
That there is one for me.
The cure for the ill
Is the love you
Bestow upon me.
The sense of love."
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"The cure for the ill
Is a remedy for the soul.
A band aid for the heart or See More
A wrap for the head.
The cure for the ill is the
Right medicine.
A liquid or solid,
Or my love for you.
Suddenly, in a bliss of
What feels like magic,
My scars are healed.
My head does not ache.
A gentle thumb on my face
Brushes my tears away.
You look at me with eyes
That changed my entire demeanor.
You look at me with eyes that
Mesmerize me in less than
A second.
Your pretty golden eyes.
Your long brown hair glistens
Through my tears as you
Look at me with a concerned
Expression on your face.
It is quiet now that the
Room is not filled with
My intense sobbing that
Was there just a minute ago.
But as you entered the room
And came up to me all
Bad things disappeared.
Only good things have appeared.
The pain in my stomach turns to butterflies.
The ache in my head transfers to my heart.
All memories of the pain i have endured
Are replaced by memories of me
With you.
The sensation of loneliness
That was there once before
Has turned into something
New.
My thoughts once clouded
With a gray storm surrounding,
Have transformed into sunshine
Now that I am with you.
As I lay in the bed
With my white gown on
And you caressing my cheek
I can not even think.
Your warm touch and warm face
Have me in an embrace.
Your loving heart and beautiful eyes
Have me in a loving state.
All my problems have gone away.
All my problems have gone away.
Your warm smile and glistening hair
Have me in a trance.
Your warm golden eyes and
Glistening hair,
Your face of concern and
Mine of despair.
The warm sensation
Of your hand on me
Has me wanting to sleep
With you next to me.
Your sense of security,
And mine of dismay.
Oh, suddenly I wonder
If this is all a dream.
It could be.
You lift my body
From my bed and
Send me to a world
I never knew existed.
Is this Wonderland?
A fantasy come true?
My love is deep for you.
I have missed you.
The cure for the ill
Is the love I have for you.
It is a band aid on my heart
And a wrap for my head.
It is a medicine for my throat
And a remedy for my soul.
My fears go away when I
Look at you.
You make me smile through
My tears.
You make my storm of gray
Turn away.
Instead of being on this white bed
And in my white gown,
I am in your hoodie
And on your couch.
I longed and craved for
This moment.
Your presence cures
All my sickness.
I feel safe,
I feel protected,
I feel secure,
In your arms.
I feel happy,
I feel loved,
In your arms.
There is nowhere I would rather be.
There may be no cure
For the ill that is
Permanent, but I know
That there is one for me.
The cure for the ill
Is the love you
Bestow upon me.
The sense of love."
on April 13, 2023
on April 11, 2023
that moment whne your in a bad state and your therapist tells you "if you were serious about it you'd be writing a note"
takes +3 damage
takes +3 damage
on April 09, 2023
yall can i dm someone abt smth i need advice
on March 23, 2023
2023 feels like a 'face your fears' year to me ngl
-swimming; had to get in a pool
-needles; bloodwork done at least 3 times
-confrontation; talking to teachers
-opening up to my parents; yeah i did that but it failed miserably, back i go
-swimming; had to get in a pool
-needles; bloodwork done at least 3 times
-confrontation; talking to teachers
-opening up to my parents; yeah i did that but it failed miserably, back i go
on March 19, 2023
it's official i will play a dramatic bard who speaks in bad Shakespearean Poetry
on March 17, 2023
"put your hand in the middle if you have daddy issues"
*me, who just told a traumatizing story* "i don't know if i d-"
"Ren put your hand in the middle with us"
*me, who just told a traumatizing story* "i don't know if i d-"
"Ren put your hand in the middle with us"
on March 13, 2023
ghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhg
i hope to drop out of this godforsaken honors class
i hope to drop out of this godforsaken honors class
on March 13, 2023