on September 04, 2023
i am tired,
im tired of feelings,
but the main thing i tired of.. my body, and eating
i have been over eating cause i know my ED (eating disorder) is coming back. yesterday when i realized how much i ate i went to the bathroom and purged... i havent done that in 7 months. i know it was a wrong way to relapse, but it felt good to do it.. i binge ate again today and the thought of purging is bothering me atm, i want to, but i kinda just want to not eat anymore, if i die oh well... See More who in my family will even care at this point really..
im tired of feelings,
but the main thing i tired of.. my body, and eating
i have been over eating cause i know my ED (eating disorder) is coming back. yesterday when i realized how much i ate i went to the bathroom and purged... i havent done that in 7 months. i know it was a wrong way to relapse, but it felt good to do it.. i binge ate again today and the thought of purging is bothering me atm, i want to, but i kinda just want to not eat anymore, if i die oh well... See More who in my family will even care at this point really..
on September 04, 2023
bio update, might change it again later, its just kinda how i feel rn
on September 04, 2023
why do i even talk about my feelings if ill just cry about it in the end
on September 04, 2023
i stg...
on September 04, 2023
how am i already sleepy
on September 04, 2023
on September 04, 2023
so my sister's dad came back into her life after 8 years, (he left when she was born) and he called my mom yelling at her crazy. im gonna beat his ass
on September 04, 2023
watching ROTTMNT movie for the 23923497234258092384928498128769724104983098029384784710th time this year
on September 04, 2023
on September 04, 2023
on September 04, 2023
on September 04, 2023
i was doing so good, i actually almost hurt myself again earlier. but Sam texted me, and i realied they were the only reason im going. i have to keep going, or else they wont get their amazing Xmas gifts. :,)
on September 04, 2023
the thoughts are back...
on September 04, 2023
my mom is making fun of birdbox movie for the lady naming her kids "boy" and "girl" and i said "well, you named our dog, Dog.."
on September 04, 2023