on September 11, 2023
on September 10, 2023
man life has been going down hill but at least ive been getting hot Cheetos :D
on September 10, 2023
Lol, won't be on much for a while but ill be on here and there
Just a lol update, I broke down crying in a bathroom while me and my family were at a restaurant
Just a lol update, I broke down crying in a bathroom while me and my family were at a restaurant
on September 09, 2023
tw just a vent/rant, mention of $/h, violent descriptions, and just general (mildly) triggering topics
prolly best to ignore this post bc its a bunch of reading lol.
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So literally I got my iPad I got grounded again for no reason so I dont have it anymore again and idk when im getting back. I was actually happy for once when I gt my iPad back but my dad is a little bitch so now I dont have it.
(TW $/H) and my mental health has been the best recently either, its just been slowly getting worse and worse, and it eventually lead me to relapse multiple times in the past week, I haven't gotten past a week clean, I literally just fvcking relapsed last night.
im such a terrible person, and my mental health going down doesn't help that im also missing a whole bunch of school and going to have so many missing assignments and its just even more pressure on me.
I have a wedding to go to tmmrw and I dont even want to go, there's going to be so many people there and I feel like everyone will be staring at me and just straight up judging me
(TW forced religion(?) and violent descriptions) and my mom has also been trying to shove her little church and christianity down me and my brother throat, she and my brother got into a huge fight last night over it and sometimes I just want to bash her head with a bat or slam it into concrete and stomp on it until her head is just mush and there's blood all on the floor and me.
(TW somewhat violent descriptions and somewhat mildly triggering topics) I swear I feel like my family is fvcked but I cant do anything about it and if I even TRY to do smt about it it wont make any difference. I swear I know my mind is fvcked, even my therapist says that Im fvcked in my head. sometimes I feel like I dont have enough trauma to be eve considered mentally ill, sometimes I feel like I need to do more, more to myself, and my body.
(TW possible triggering topics) sometimes I wish my interest use was monitored and limited because I got intoduced to such s3xual stuff when I was only like, 5 or 6, I wish I never came across the things I did when I did. It lead me to websites that I shouldn't have been on and I ended up doing things I shouldn't have when I was that age, such as drp, looking at and watching nsfw stuff, which ended up making me hypersexual, which I only came to terms with that conclusion not that long ago.
prolly best to ignore this post bc its a bunch of reading lol.
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So literally I got my iPad I got grounded again for no reason so I dont have it anymore again and idk when im getting back. I was actually happy for once when I gt my iPad back but my dad is a little bitch so now I dont have it.
(TW $/H) and my mental health has been the best recently either, its just been slowly getting worse and worse, and it eventually lead me to relapse multiple times in the past week, I haven't gotten past a week clean, I literally just fvcking relapsed last night.
im such a terrible person, and my mental health going down doesn't help that im also missing a whole bunch of school and going to have so many missing assignments and its just even more pressure on me.
I have a wedding to go to tmmrw and I dont even want to go, there's going to be so many people there and I feel like everyone will be staring at me and just straight up judging me
(TW forced religion(?) and violent descriptions) and my mom has also been trying to shove her little church and christianity down me and my brother throat, she and my brother got into a huge fight last night over it and sometimes I just want to bash her head with a bat or slam it into concrete and stomp on it until her head is just mush and there's blood all on the floor and me.
(TW somewhat violent descriptions and somewhat mildly triggering topics) I swear I feel like my family is fvcked but I cant do anything about it and if I even TRY to do smt about it it wont make any difference. I swear I know my mind is fvcked, even my therapist says that Im fvcked in my head. sometimes I feel like I dont have enough trauma to be eve considered mentally ill, sometimes I feel like I need to do more, more to myself, and my body.
(TW possible triggering topics) sometimes I wish my interest use was monitored and limited because I got intoduced to such s3xual stuff when I was only like, 5 or 6, I wish I never came across the things I did when I did. It lead me to websites that I shouldn't have been on and I ended up doing things I shouldn't have when I was that age, such as drp, looking at and watching nsfw stuff, which ended up making me hypersexual, which I only came to terms with that conclusion not that long ago.
@TinyGoat we both just need to move out of our current households and live together, it'll be better then.
on September 08, 2023
on September 08, 2023
@TinyGoat bt this is the life I was born with so I have to figure out how to make it through, and you deserve a nice life more than me.
on September 08, 2023
on September 08, 2023
on September 08, 2023
fuckkkk
i just got on and i have to do some chores :(
brb
i just got on and i have to do some chores :(
brb
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on August 27, 2023
on August 27, 2023
sooooo
how have yall beennnn??
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i got my ipad back so i can do art commissions againn 🤭🤭😍😍😍😍
how have yall beennnn??
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i got my ipad back so i can do art commissions againn 🤭🤭😍😍😍😍
on August 27, 2023
balls
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on August 27, 2023
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on August 27, 2023
on August 27, 2023
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hey guys
im not going to be online much this week or smt like that, school has been getting me overwhelmed very easily
and I dont want to strain myself being on here and doing school so ill most likely be online this weekend
the reason im saying this is because im currently fighting the urge to relapse and I almost broke down about 2-3 times at school
and it also doesn't help that my mom is rude to me and yells at me for the slightest See More thing done wrong
but she also doesn't want me to have qfeast anymore, I can only have tiktok, Pinterest, and insta
but ill still be on here just not as much
that's all I have to say for now, bye <3
-Ace/Acey
hey guys
im not going to be online much this week or smt like that, school has been getting me overwhelmed very easily
and I dont want to strain myself being on here and doing school so ill most likely be online this weekend
the reason im saying this is because im currently fighting the urge to relapse and I almost broke down about 2-3 times at school
and it also doesn't help that my mom is rude to me and yells at me for the slightest See More thing done wrong
but she also doesn't want me to have qfeast anymore, I can only have tiktok, Pinterest, and insta
but ill still be on here just not as much
that's all I have to say for now, bye <3
-Ace/Acey
on August 23, 2023
on August 23, 2023
omg I found my discord
its Xx_lucid_ace_xX#5782
its Xx_lucid_ace_xX#5782
on August 22, 2023
also bio update
on August 22, 2023
